Hey guysss.
Sup?

Yeah I'm out of school and it hasn't really hit me yet to be honest. I could care less, really. It's just one of those things... If anything I have more things that's getting to me than leaving school, and believe me it's really hit me hard this time. :/

Long story... Basically there's this girl in school who's making herself to be me, if not, even better than I am. And it's insulting really, because whenever there was this guy I liked, she would ALWAYS jump for him and I backed off for her. And they would always go for my clone. Which PISSED me off so much, because it just gives me the impression that No one wants me. Maybe that's it. Maybe it isn't... u.u She's been copying my personality too. And my fashion sense it's driving me insane. So much I just broke down in my art lesson completely and.. Yeah. You could guess what happened. I almost freaked. I was filled with so much rage I just converted it into sadness and cried.
In all seriousness, I'm not bothered about her, I'm more bothered about how I am losing myself to this freak of Nature. Why are all the guys going for her? Why is she trying to be me? I know it's a compliment if you're being copied, but right down to the very bone is just.. Obsessive and it's scary. And expanding on that point. The fact that she's being biased with all her friends. She is so overly possessive it's pissy. She has a male friend, and I know that she knows only 2 male friends. But one day she had another male name in her SN, so naturally. I would ask who he was and she only said just a friend, didn't even give it some thought, what about letting me meet him? (And since I go to an all girls school, it's sort of OMG A GUY thing for us...) I'm not like her. I'm not going to snatch guys. I am NOT THAT LOW. I have pride in myself. u.u; I let her meet my guy friends. Whats the problem with her letting me meet her dude friends? Fucking hell. And further more... She puts her guy friends in front of her girl friends. Which is pretty insulting because we ALWAYS were there for her. One or another. It works EITHER way. But no. She buys cheapy presents for us that can EASILY be obtained by collecting change on the ground then walking into a store with those change and buy what the hell ever, on the other hand she buys something worth £30 for a MALE friend. Stupid sexist little fuck wit of a friend.
I honestly don't know what to think. I cared for her SO much. And if shes going to treat me the way she is now. She doesn't deserve it. I LABOURED AND SLAVED for her and her own well being. But, NO. All she does is kick me back up the arse and let me keep crawling back. She is one big fat cunt. She doesn't deserve me. I honestly thought she was my friend, a very very dear friend. And if shes going to be like this. I'd rather go back to my ex best friend and stay with her, because she is much more mature than the stupid clone will ever be. EVER.

tl;dr: This bitch has been copying me and shes a fucking bad friend.

Okay. Moving onto happier notes~~

I am on my study leave, so I'll be revising tons. Even though I feel pretty relaxed about it and all. But from now on it's pretty straight forward for me, even if I get a GCSE or not. I feel like I can do it easily. And becoming a manga artist without a GCSE can't be that hard, it's always down to self publishing and what not.

I've been doodling and practicing poses and perspective a lot. Hopefully I can stop being so lazy and scan it up sometime or something. xD I'll finish off some photoshop pictures after my exams or so, then post it up, so don't expect serious works off me anytime soon, even one of my friends put her AMV projects on halt too. So we're on the same boat.

On another note.

I am majourly obsessed with Visual Kei style. @/////@;; So fit. <3 SuG is so HAWT. Ughhh. I swear. I jizzed in my pants more than I made myself jizz. ._. Seriously. Google them. So hot. Or! If you're too lazy let me help you google them~ [link] They are amazingly hot! >/////<;; I swear. I gasmed more than once looking at them! and 12012 playing twister is SO HOT. And cute. >////<!! I blame Hannah. D< Evil woman. T___T;; Now I am ABSOLUTELY obsessed with them and I can't do anything about it. I am majorly obsessed with Vocaloid too. > A < Darnit NicoNico! And Youtube! T__T; Ayyyeee~ > w <!! I love those little things now. > A < -Wants to cosplay as a Vocaloid One day- Maybe when a new one comes out thats more suited to my looks. Or I can do Black Rock Shooter. :3 Hehehe~ xD And Also.I'm overly obsessed with the Drama Kiina. It is actually amazing! It's no joke, only 9 episodes of Mystery goodness. * Q * I finished it today and oh my god. It is so good. I really hope that they make an Anime, manga or anything thats based of it. Or better yet, a second season, the actress who plays Kiina is so CUTE. She plays Kiina so well! > w <! Maybe~ <3 It's actually amazing. I love it I love it I love it! ><;; I might rewatch it again. Cause it's actually THAT good. xD Nyaaa~ I blame Hannah. For re-obsessing me with D. Gray-Man. T__T LAME. At least I got her obsessed with it. xDD Nyappy! (AHHHHH AN'CAFE IS RUBBING OFF ON MEEEEEEE)

On tuesday or Wednesday. Something like that Hannah came around to get some D. Gray-Man off me. xD Yaaay c: xD It was amazingly fuuun. She stalked me with my own camera. .____.;; Wah ; A ; And I fed her Ramen, Black Sesmeed seed desert and Green tea, and some of my rice. o A o -Was in the middle of dinnar-It was fun though. And we watched some Japanese game shows. Which was amazingly funny and put her in major fits. xDDD Yaaay! 8D > But yar.
I am SO glad that I'm talking to Hannah more regularly. :3 Wewt!

I think I'll go watch more Dramas and Draw/Doodle a bit. @____@... Meep~

Much Love~
NYAPPYYYY~